Adjusting to RN life
Dear Jonah and Audrina,
Well I never realized how hard it would be working as a nurse. I am working in the NNICU and although I only work three days a week, they are 12 1/2 hour shifts at night. When I worked at night before in the lab it was late, 10:00-6:30. Most of the time ya'll were already in bed or even asleep. So ya'll never noticed I was gone. Only on the weekends when I had to sleep during the day while ya'll were at school. Anyway, with my new schedule I have to leave the house by 5:40 in order to get to the hospital and go to my locker and get ready and be at the baby's bedside at 6:30 PM. Which means I can no longer pick you up from school or give ya'll a bath or tuck you in to bed on the nights that I have to work. I really miss that. It's true that you take the small things for granted and you don't really appreciate them until you stop doing them. It's all been so emotional lately. The stress and the change, my hormones, who knows but sometimes I drive to work almost in tears because I won't get to see your happy faces when I pick you up from school. I won't get to see ya'll splash in the tub and get on to ya'll for splashing water all over the bathroom. I know it's silly and ridiculous but it does hurt. I know ya'll are thinking, well mom why don't you just pick us up early and then leave the same time for work? This would be plausible if it wasn't so hard on YA'LL when I leave as well (which may be part of my heartache as well). It's easier for your dad to pick ya'll up and never to have seen me then for me to watch ya'll for an hour or two and then have to leave. Ya'll scream and cry for me not to leave. Audrina grabs on for dear life on my leg and with tears streaming down your face you yell "Don't LEAVE me mommy!!" I can hear you crying all the way down the stairs outside. How can your heart not break with those words?? I'm sure it will get better. We all must adapt. I just hope it gets easier...
Love you always and forever,
Mommy
Well I never realized how hard it would be working as a nurse. I am working in the NNICU and although I only work three days a week, they are 12 1/2 hour shifts at night. When I worked at night before in the lab it was late, 10:00-6:30. Most of the time ya'll were already in bed or even asleep. So ya'll never noticed I was gone. Only on the weekends when I had to sleep during the day while ya'll were at school. Anyway, with my new schedule I have to leave the house by 5:40 in order to get to the hospital and go to my locker and get ready and be at the baby's bedside at 6:30 PM. Which means I can no longer pick you up from school or give ya'll a bath or tuck you in to bed on the nights that I have to work. I really miss that. It's true that you take the small things for granted and you don't really appreciate them until you stop doing them. It's all been so emotional lately. The stress and the change, my hormones, who knows but sometimes I drive to work almost in tears because I won't get to see your happy faces when I pick you up from school. I won't get to see ya'll splash in the tub and get on to ya'll for splashing water all over the bathroom. I know it's silly and ridiculous but it does hurt. I know ya'll are thinking, well mom why don't you just pick us up early and then leave the same time for work? This would be plausible if it wasn't so hard on YA'LL when I leave as well (which may be part of my heartache as well). It's easier for your dad to pick ya'll up and never to have seen me then for me to watch ya'll for an hour or two and then have to leave. Ya'll scream and cry for me not to leave. Audrina grabs on for dear life on my leg and with tears streaming down your face you yell "Don't LEAVE me mommy!!" I can hear you crying all the way down the stairs outside. How can your heart not break with those words?? I'm sure it will get better. We all must adapt. I just hope it gets easier...
Love you always and forever,
Mommy
posted by Naomi Senior at
7/27/2009 04:56:00 PM
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