A broken heart

Dear Audrina,
Unfortunately you have broken your first heart...your mommy's. Today you wanted nothing to do with me it seems. You only wanted grandma. It seems that studying so much has taken it's tole on you. Do you really spend more time with Grandma then me? I didn't think so but now I have to think twice. Is it really worth studying to get a good grade and have you in turn rather have grandma then me? No, it's not. It hurts so much to see you cry for grandma as she walks off. Why can't you be comforted in my arms? My heart aches. Your brother loves having his grandparents but at the end of the day he would always prefer mommy and daddy and that comforts me. But you, I have to think twice about. I have consciously made the decision to spend more time with you. Not just the time it takes to feed you and bathe you and put you to sleep but the real quality mother daughter time. Maybe just for today you needed grandma, maybe it's a one time thing. But when I reached for you and you told me no, it hurt inside, I can't lie.

Love you always and forever,

Mommy

Fair Day and Birthday parties

Dear Jonah and Audrina,

Last weekend we went to your second cousin (Sierra's) birthday party and ya'll had a blast!! Jonah, you rode the race cars for the very first time and rode the bumper boats too. You were running around and you didn't know what you wanted to do first. I think we could have spent all day there. You wanted to play games and ride the rides and play putt putt. Putt putt I believe was your most favorite! You would just put the ball down and whack it as hard as you could!! :) You are amazing to watch. I love it when ya'll both have so much fun. Audrina, you walked around pointing to everything and anytime anything remotely resembled a ball you would chase after it and say "ball" "ball". You'll be just like your brother I can tell.
The next day we went to the fair. It was Audrina's first time to the State Fair and I haven't been since I was in junior high I believe. Ya'll both had so much fun and ya'll behaved amazingly well. We ate and played and Jonah you won stuffed animals for your sister and you had a blast riding all the rides. It was the most fun I've had with ya'll in a long time and it was a much needed "family time." It's nice to just get away from everything and just have ya'll to ourselves. When ever your dad and I can get a chance we try and spend quality time with ya'll. It's been so hectic with school and tests and we feel like we have other people watch ya'll so much. Your grandma's and grandpa love ya'll so much and don't mind watching ya'll but sometimes it just seems like too much. I hate having to ask all the time and when I can get a chance to just be with ya'll I relish in it. I count the days until fun times come again!

Love always and forever,
Mommy