Under the weather

Dear Audrina,

As a mother the worst thing in the world is to see your child hurting or sick and feeling so helpless. This whole week I have seen it coming. I have noticed your watery eyes and sniffles. As the week has progressed each day you have gotten a little bit worse. How do you stop a moving train? You can't I suppose. Today you woke up with a full blown sickness. A cold I suppose. Maybe it's allergies (with the hurricanes these past couple of weeks it has thrown allergies completely out of whack with all the stuff blowing in the air.), maybe it's your teeth (you have a couple of new molars coming in), or maybe it's just a cold. What ever it is it's causing you to run a fever and your little nose a watering. Your spirits are up though. You're such a good baby. You love to smile and laugh and you love your brother so much. You are seldom in a bad mood. You wake up happy and you go to bed happy and with a snack in your hand your content. It breaks my heart to watch you toddle around with your eyes watery and puffy and your nose running. I can hear you breathing from across the room. The congestion has caused a cough now and you don't want to eat much. If I could only take away your sickness I would. I often pray to God to let me have the sickness instead of you. Not a second goes by when I look at you that I don't wish I had it instead. When I laid you to sleep today I refused to put you down until the last possible moment before I had to get ready for work. I just held you in my arms, and watched as you struggled to breathe. I held you up so it would be easier for you to breath and I prayed over and over "God, please, give it to me, give it to me!" Maybe he'll answer my prayers tonight. I lay you in your crib and kiss you good-night. Rest sweet baby, rest.

Love always and forever,
Mommy