Audrina's New School

Dear Audrina,

Well we have officially switched you to your brother's school after 10 months of having to drive to TWO schools every morning and every evening. We thought (key word being thought) you would transition fairly easy. You often come with us to pick your brother up or drop him off so you are familiar with the people and the classrooms. You loved it there (or did any how). You would come in everyday and go straight to the class rooms, which ever one was open and run straight for the toys. I knew it would be difficult for you, I just didn't realize how difficult it would be!! The first day was hard, but as the days go by (it's Wednesday today) it has gotten just worse and worse. The first day you went in fine and after realizing that I was indeed leaving you there this time you proceeded to scream at the top of your lungs. You reached for me as the teacher picked you up to take you to play and meet the other kids. I had to run out as fast as I could so that I wouldn't cry myself. My poor little girl, with tears streaming down her face. I called at lunch time and they told me you had clamed down after a while and then during mid morning you decided this wasn't for you and started to cry again. So much so that they had to call Jonah from his classroom to calm you down. (My big boy, going to calm his sister down. I wonder what he said to you? Did he kiss you and hug you to make you feel better? He told me he did, but he isn't the most reliable historian :) ) Anyways, you didn't eat a thing there all day long you were so upset. But the good news is that you didn't cry when I came to pick you up as Jonah often did when he was little. I remember his eyes being puffy and red from crying the whole day. You didn't have puffy eyes and you ran to me with the biggest smile and with open arms!! :)

Today was even worse then yesterday. As soon as we pulled up to the school you started to cry. Oh, no... We dropped you brother off and the entire time you said "I want to go back to car mommy, I want to go back to car." It broke my heart. How I wish I could keep you at home all day long. But you have to get used to this school. As I got closer to your room you literally started shaking, with tears running down your face. You wrapped your tiny little body around mine and squeezed as hard as you could. I could have let go of you and you would have been stuck to me like glue with the death grip you had on me. Why is this so hard??? I hate this. It hurts so much to see you cry so much. You're such a gappy go lucky girl who loves to smile and cries rarely. I have never seen this side of my poor little girl. I sit here now as I have left you at school, and with tears running down MY face now, I wonder how you are doing....

Love you always and forever,
Mommy