Heaven

Dear Jonah,

Tatu was very sick. A few days after we brought him home he was very lethargic, he wouldn't eat or drink, and he was breathing really hard. We took him to the vet and found out that he had an upper respiratory infection. The vet said that it might turn into pneumonia and he might have to be hospitalized. You and and Audrina were so sad that you couldn't play with him. He sat in the laundry room and only got up to go to the bathroom. I don't know if it was the antibiotics or his sickness but he was having horrible diarrhea. He got so skinny his ribs were poking out of his tiny body. We called the breeder during the week. We had been giving him antibiotics for a few days and he just wasn't getting any better. The breeder said that they had a nurse to care option so that we wouldn't have to pay anymore vet bills. They would take all the responsibility and all the care and all the bills and when Tatu got better we would just take him back. We dropped him off on Saturday at the breeder and on Tuesday we hadn't heard anything. I called and he told us that Tatu had died on Sunday night. He was just too sick to make it. I couldn't lie to you when you asked. I told you that Tatu had died. It was kind of perfect timing really because earlier in the week the subject of heaven had come up. "Mommy what's heaven?" I explained it as best I could.

"It's everything you ever wanted. Name anything you want and that's what you would have in heaven."

"Can I have gummy bears? (Yes)" "The beach? (Yes)" "Ice cream (Yes)" "Can I play outside as long as I want? (Yes)" "Well then I can't wait to go to heaven! Then can I come back and be with you mommy after I go to heaven?"

"No baby, you don't come back. Once you're in heaven you stay in heaven with Jesus, he's the one that watches over you."

"Oh....ok"

So when Tatu died. You asked "Mommy do dogs go to heaven?"

"Yes"

"Oh, then Tatu is eating the gummy bears and when I go to heaven I can see him again!!!!" You were so excited at the thought of seeing your little best friend again. You weren't even sad. You were happy for him and I'm glad. That's how it should be...

Love always and forever,

Mommy